Relief

Chapter 16 of H. Norman Wright's Experiencing Grief is about relief. There seem to be a lot of reasons for people to be relieved when someone close dies. My relief is the dual lifting of Mom's suffering and my caregiving time. I've known and mentioned this from the start. Does it change my grief and how I process it? I don't think so. I don't think anyone is appalled that I felt relief at Mom's death. I don't think anyone is surprised. But, being relieved isn't the same as sadness. It's another piece to fit in and live with.

That was an odd little chapter.

Although teary episodes still pop up I'm starting to think that they are almost habitual. Or maybe that little empathetic part of us takes longer to become less sensitive. I'm beginning to feel that I don't want to be scratching at a scab that the healing that is happening is going to go along on it's own. I'm sure things will get all tangled up for a bit when school starts again. There is an entire ball of ickiness that Mom's death was part of. Perhaps now that I've defined and maybe separated out some of the grief taking care of work ickies won't be as complicated. I sure hope so.

Summer knitting season is almost over. Projects will be slower to finish. On the other hand in a couple months it will be cool enough to pick up afghan and shawl projects. That will be a nice change of pace. Lately:

Wrist warmers for me:


A hat for a store bought Monkey:


A hat and scarf set that I didn't like and frogged (unknitted):

And turned it into a child's hat and scarf set:
I have another hat/scarf set mostly finished and yarn chosen for more wrist warmers. I also want to make a couple "friendship baskets" and see if they hit a note with fundraiser shoppers.