Saturday, February 27, 2010

Folding Thankfulness

Just in case you havn't found my newer blog, it's here:   Folding Thankfulness

This year's newest Apricot blossoms.

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

A day to remember

Yesterday was the one year anniversary of the day Mom passed from life with us to life with Jesus.   I feel myself tucking away those hard, hard days from our time together and from her last days with us.   I can still be brought to tears at some of the memories but there is perspective now with the tears.  That was then and it was difficult.  She's better now and happy.  What a thrill it will be to meet again in the presence of God. 

It's easier now to walk alongside friends who are along the same point in the journey.  It's easier to say, "I know."  It's easier to cry with them and cry for their sorrow and not for my own.  


Monday, January 4, 2010

Anniversary Approaching

I'm thinking I make take a day off and find a way to honor Mom. Not sure what that's going to mean but I'm feeling the need to do something different.

Not much to say, really. I'm not very much weepier than usually-just a little. Much more thoughtful and reflective lately. Something will bubble up one of these days but I couldn't say when.

I thinking what I'm feeling is anticipation and I don't know yet of what.

From sis's backyard:

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

Wondering Why

Not in the sense of, "Why did Mom die." It was time, it was good, it is good. She is with Jesus!

It's not an obsessive thing but lately I keep having thoughts pop up about why I did certain things the way I did. They made sense in the moment but would I do it again in that manner? I think of things like hauling Mom along to choir for so long. Would I stay home from choir or something else if I had to do it again? I needed choir and could rarely find someone to stay with Mom but the thought still pops up. Little bits of flotsam and jetsam making their way through my mind.

Thanksgiving was not at all difficult in terms of thinking of Mom or remembering Mom. We didn't talk about Mom but we don't need to.

Flower photo-I still have roses in my back yard:

You've got to love trees that change color in fall:

And, can you believe I'm up to 11 days in my 365 days of Thankfulness blog? I argued with myself a couple of times but in the end found my thankfulness.

Thursday, December 3, 2009

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Just a little funny

Tonight at choir we started a new song for Christmas Eve. It's different, it's hard, it's got strange ways to do words, it's got latin, it's got somewhat eerie harmonies. I'm not "getting" it yet. Neither are a lot of other choir folk! So, as we wrapped it up I commented to those around me, "I just remembered, I can't sing for Christmas Eve. I have to stay home and take care of Mom." Ahahahahahahahahaha, my friends laughed with me. It was good.

Happy Mom, with her twin:

(her younger son's wedding)

Sunday, November 29, 2009

Come On Over!

To my new blog!

I'm not going to be closing this one right away, and maybe never. I am ready not to be so intently focused on grieving and working through grief. I'm sure I'll have more grief moments to think about so I'm leaving this blog open.

Thank you for joining me and supporting me in my grief and moving through it.

The new blog, as you've probably guessed, is about Thankfulness.

Come on over!