Wednesday, December 9, 2009

Wondering Why

Not in the sense of, "Why did Mom die." It was time, it was good, it is good. She is with Jesus!

It's not an obsessive thing but lately I keep having thoughts pop up about why I did certain things the way I did. They made sense in the moment but would I do it again in that manner? I think of things like hauling Mom along to choir for so long. Would I stay home from choir or something else if I had to do it again? I needed choir and could rarely find someone to stay with Mom but the thought still pops up. Little bits of flotsam and jetsam making their way through my mind.

Thanksgiving was not at all difficult in terms of thinking of Mom or remembering Mom. We didn't talk about Mom but we don't need to.

Flower photo-I still have roses in my back yard:

You've got to love trees that change color in fall:

And, can you believe I'm up to 11 days in my 365 days of Thankfulness blog? I argued with myself a couple of times but in the end found my thankfulness.

Thursday, December 3, 2009

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Just a little funny

Tonight at choir we started a new song for Christmas Eve. It's different, it's hard, it's got strange ways to do words, it's got latin, it's got somewhat eerie harmonies. I'm not "getting" it yet. Neither are a lot of other choir folk! So, as we wrapped it up I commented to those around me, "I just remembered, I can't sing for Christmas Eve. I have to stay home and take care of Mom." Ahahahahahahahahaha, my friends laughed with me. It was good.

Happy Mom, with her twin:

(her younger son's wedding)